A letter I wrote to my wife, Around April 2005
Hi Teresa,
I just wanted to let you know that I still love you. Nothing will ever change that. I cried last night until 3AM I am getting over blaming myself, I now believe that there are other reason for your leaving, not just for GID. I believe that you used that as a reason to leave and to deal with some of the guilt you may have been dealing with. Regardless of my knowing this I still take the blame even though I still believe you would have found another reason to leave, this just made it convenient.
You will never know how much I could have loved you my beautiful wife. My love for you would have never stopped growing. The day would only come upon my death, only then would the growth cease. I wish you luck in you future relationships but I do not think you will find them as fulfilling and love filled as with me. Please don’t think I am trying to be conceited, I am not. You will not find another that will love and care for you as much as I did. I know you might not know it but you were my world, you have no idea what you have given up. I love you Teresa, I will never love another as much as I have loved you. No one could take your place in my heart.
I know you will never see this letter, I am writing it for myself. I don’t know for what reason, I just felt as though I had too. I still don’t understand why you have gone. It goes much deeper than the reason stated in our conversations. I don’t know what could possible make love like that get buried never to surface again. How can it be covered with so much lies, love is suppose to conquer all, I guess it has to be uncovered for that to happen.
I know I don’t send you letters anymore, I don’t think you care to read them. That is the reason I just save them on my PC and print them later for hard-copies. I love you, you will never know how deep my love goes. Keep safe and keep our children safe and keep them on God’s path. Love Don
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