October 15, 2005

October 15, 2005

Lord I thank you for making me the way I am. even though I don't understand a lot about what I am going through. Even though others have left I know you are here for me always, thank you. For years I have prayed and prayed for healing for something and I never heard from you, with so many other things that you answered in my life why not this? SO after all those years I finally decided that silence is consent. Like the Allison Krauss song goes "You say it best when you say nothing at all". I know I have fallen Lord, I need you to guide me now and show me the way you want me to go. The fact that you are here for me is the only thing that keeps me going.

I talked to Teresa today so naturally I am crying, she can never know how much I love her, I am having such a hard time even writing this, I can't see the keys because of the tears. Thank you for letting me love Lord but please don't let it in my life again. Never do I want to get so attached to someone, like I did Teresa.