April 15, 2007 The restrooms

April 15, 2007

Hello everyone, sorry for the long leave. But I have been having a great time as of late. I can't remember being this happy in a long time. I also want to thank all the people I have chatted with on yahoo; you all really helped me through a tough time, thanks.

I have been on hormones for 7 months or so and am seeing changes, not as much as I like but they are very evident. I was kind of starting to think that I would never be able to pass as female, but last week when I was on my way back from West Virginia, I stopped in a rest area and went to the men’s room, as I was done and ready to walk out a man came, stopped in his tracks and looked again at the opened door to make sure he was in the right restroom. He came in once he realized he was in the right one, but I absolutely loved that, even while being in a men’s restroom I had him a tad confused. Later that day I was over a very good friend’s house, she was having an Easter dinner; she had around 25 people over. A little girl was talking to me than left and went to her mom and asked her what was wrong with that ladies voice, poor girl.

I have another story but I wanted to break up the paragraph.

I was in a bar in Mansfield Ohio, I had to use the restroom the first time I went into the men’s and was ok, mainly because no one else was there. The next time I went I got pointed to the women’s restroom, I didn't go I went and sat back down, trying to decide what to do. I went again and this time someone told me that I was in the wrong one, I turned around and went and sat down again. I told Trina that I was having problems getting into the men’s restroom, I told her what happened and she said come on lets go to the women’s. I went in and it was empty, as I was sitting there however, it filled with about 5-7 women all waiting on the stalls to open. I was worried again what they were going to say, I was already kicked out of the men’s. As I was hesitating, Trina said " are you almost done Rebekah?" I walked out and every one was ok with me, even though I was introduced as Don to them earlier they started calling me Rebekah or Beka, I was in heaven.

Now I know I may have just had an great week, I know there is still rejection out there, but in my eyes this is progress, I have only been transitioning for 7 months and already I am making progress in the way I look and being accepted.

I am absolutely loving my life!

Thank you Lord!