I just wrote this love letter like 4 months ago to my wife even though we have been separated for 3+ years now. And people ask me why I don't see other people.
I sit here thinking of you, my love. Never will I forget you, your influences on me and my life are immeasurable. Never will I be in love like I was with you, never will you be replaced. Seventeen years we were married, the most wonderful time, I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it. I would lie in bed and just look at your sweet face, every part of you I had memorized, how beautiful could one person be? I still am saddened by not being able to see such beauty everyday. You were the mother of my children and you were my life. Nothing would have made me stop loving you, the longer I was with you the more I loved you and the more beautiful you became, I could not imagine another as beautiful as you or as lucky as I. I still consider myself lucky to have been with you, thank you for loving me. Buying you flowers seemed pointless, next to your beauty they were nothing, they wouldn’t have even made a good accessory for you, what could compare?
I know you still love me and I am guessing that you even have regrets about the way things have turned out. I am sorry I wasn’t the right person for you; I know you wanted someone who was not living a lie. I have mixed feelings about this, I am very much saddened by the fact that you left, but at the same time you set a part of me free that I had hidden away. Rebekah wouldn’t be here if not for you, thank you. I know your intent was not to set her free but I could not be more thrilled with it. Although saddened by the loss of you, I could not be happier about the way my life is turning out and the acceptance I have received. How lucky can one person be, able to be themselves and be accepted and to have tasted the sweet essence of your love? I have just come to the realization that I am blessed, I used to think I was cursed but I don’t see that now. I have known the sweetest love imaginable, yours, we have three beautiful children, and I have been blessed with a feminine spirit, which I used to not see as a blessing but with your release I have discovered how great it is.
Thanks for all you have given me; never will I be able to repay you. Thanks for being my wife, my lover, the mother of my children, and my releaser. Thanks for making me the happiest women alive.
I still and always will love you, you were my world. You will never know how much my love for you would have grown, it will never diminish but it will never grow now, can anything be sadder, love like that should have never stopped being fed.
I am sorry hun, I love you and will always be here for you, just ask.
Love forever
Rebekah
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