August 30, 2005

August 30, 2005

I have spent so long trying to cover my transgenderism it feels good to let it go now. Although I regret the losses that I have had as far as my family goes I really am excited about my future. I can't wait to begin transitioning. I expect that I will not be accepted by some of my friends, I am kid of curious to see how that all plays out.

I am really grateful that Joe still considers me a friend, I thought for sure I would lose everyone, I know I still have the ultimate test with them still to come. It's easy to accept someone if you don't have to deal with it, what about when it is so evident that they can't ignore it. I love all of my friends and family, I will hate to see those that can't accept me.

Then I also have the other big one, my church.... I love BCF, I don't know what they are going to think of me, I am not sure they would want me coming as Rebekah, I know they would accept me as far as wanting to "help" me, but when I show them that I think this is right what will their reaction be? Only My Lord knows.