Well, I filled out a questionnaire to get herbal hormone replacement therapy. I am soooo ready to start this, it can't come quick enough.
My biggest fear is my friends, I still don't know what their response will be too me if I actually do go all the way with the transition. I hope and pray they will all still love me and not want to be my friends any more. Like Eric told me, We don't know how we will react either.
...and my kids, what if they don't want to have anything to do with me, that will really kill me.
Becky really wants me to stay, I am very flattered by this, but I don't want to let my kids down any more than I already have, I love them more than life itself. I wish they could have had a normal father.
Becky wanted me to get out of the jeep today and go in with her as Rebekah, gosh I would love that, but it is so hard to do. I guess just knowing that the possibility for rejection is there, scares me.
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