Today I am really pleased at the way I look; I felt I did a good job on my make-up and my hair. I am really upset at the same time with my hair because it falls from my head like a waterfall; it almost makes me cry when I take a shower.
Becky took pictures of me while I was sleeping, they are my first pictures taken as Rebekah. I am also noticing more that I don’t like being Don; I want to be Rebekah fully. I am getting to the point where I want to start taking hormones even without a doctor’s supervision. I need them as soon as possible, that is the way I feel, the longer I go without them the harder it gets.
I pray all the time asking God to show me the right path; I don’t feel I am supposed to be a male any longer, I feel I was born with a defect, no one else can possibly understand. They see it as I am born a male, nobody seems to be able to understand that there is a possibility that somebody can be born with a female mind in a male’s body. I can not imagine anything more frustrating both in the way I feel and the way others perceive me, nobody accepting the fact that there is that possibility.
I love you Lord
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