Thursday, November 18, 2004

Bible verses for Eunucks

Nov.18, 2004

Well I just came a crossed a verse that shows, in my opinion that God doesn’t see anything wrong with me or anyone else that suffers from this or any other identity issue. As a matter of fact he even says it’s something some people are born with.

Matthew 19:12
For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage[
19:12 Or have made themselves eunuchs] because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it."
(Whole Chapter: Matthew 19 In context: Matthew 19:11-13)

Main Entry: eu·nuch
Pronunciation:
'yü-n&k, -nik
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English eunuk, from Latin eunuchus, from Greek eunouchos, from eunE bed + echein to have, have charge of -- more at SCHEME
1 : a castrated man placed in charge of a harem or employed as a chamberlain in a palace
2 : a man or boy deprived of the testes or external genitals
3 : one that lacks virility or power eunuchs>
- eu·nuch·ism /
-n&-"ki-z&m, -ni-/ noun

Main Entry: vi·ril·i·ty
Pronunciation:
v&-'ri-l&-tE, British also vI-
Function: noun
: the quality or state of being virile : a : MANHOOD b : manly vigor : MASCULINITY

I had always thought that it was impossible to be born this way; I figured I was a product of my environment. According to this verse that is not the case. Maybe I am seeing what I want to see, but I don’t think so.

Why is it that our churches skip over scriptures like these? This is not the only passage that mentions this either.

Dear Lord, how I love you. You are the one person in my life I can count on, thank you for being here for me, no matter what actions I take or mistakes I make you are still here for me. Today is March 14, 11pm I just got back from taking April home.

April: I met April at Wal-Mart, she is 19 and needed a friend so I have tried to be here for her. I have taken her to do clothes and get food, I also gave her money which was the money I was going to give you Lord, thank you for supplying me with it and being able to help her. Help her to get a new place and car. Help me to be the friend she needs.

Help me Lord to be a gentleman to April and whatever else she may need, be it a friend or father figures, whatever, Lord give me wisdom.

We have been working the past two weeks getting the new Wal-Mart ready, it’s coming along pretty well, no one has been injured, thank you Lord.

Lord Teresa has been giving me a hard time with bringing the kids out her for the summer, I feel she is being selfish, but I guess I am biased. Give me wisdom Lord in dealing with her; help me to watch my mouth and my thoughts towards her.

Lord she has also taken the liberty of telling the kids about my condition, I pray that their love for me will not falter because of things she may try and tell them. Help me Lord to be a loving parent and not do things contrary to your will, thank you Lord.

The more I thing about her the more I try and think of things I despised about her, Lord that about kills me, why would my mind go into such areas? At the same time my heart still aches for her, how can I be stuck between two feelings that are at opposite ends of the spectrum?

I know you know my thoughts, help me Lord to clear them, I feel so alone all the time, I know you are here for me, forever and for that I thank you. I always seem too be in a state of confusion all the time, it never seems to clear. Everything form Teresa to my identity, to my walk with you, everything, it really sucks Lord. Please clear my mind, thank you Oh, Glorious Father, I love you.

I am going to bed Lord, thank you for talking with me, please continue it and please don’t let me get to busy to do the same. I love you Lord.

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